Hello Hapless Souls :)

Somewhere, somehow, someone or something just have to ruin my mood every single day. Haven't been having a day feeling completely elated since last week. Oh well...all I can do is just pray to have a better tomorrow, right? But then again, tomorrow never comes.

But to make myself feel better, I have a new addiction now. I'm addicted to...Click Here. I stumbled upon something that made me laugh so hard. So why not share, right? It's 10 new words that should make it into the dictionary.

I like Elbonics! But Telecrastination beats everything ah! HAHA! Anyway, I'm supposed to study for Maths right now. But with Maths, my brain has an auto off switch. So every formula I try to memorise wouldn't even matter.

I don't know what else to blog about right now. Every time I try to type something out, I would backspace everything. So that means I'm not thinking straight and I need to get my beauty sleep. Before I leave this space, just wanna wish GET WELL SOON TO NADIA! Love you all :) xoxo

Now that we're done

I'm so sorry

To A, I believed that we can make the relationship work. I really do. When we mended all the flaws we had last week, I felt like I had a new lease of life with you. Do you think I'd be frivolous enough to throw away what we had just like that? The thing is, I am forced to end our relationship. You said that I have my own choice and my own decision to do what's right for myself. But in the end of the day, who would approve us being together? My parents, right? I fought for my rights and for yours. But I'm tired of all these. Every single day I had to struggle to fight the battle with myself whether the step I take would be the best for us. Do you even know that? I can't possibly be lying to my parents about us. What part of they don't approve don't you understand?

You need me as much as I need you. Trust me on this. You have been there for me every single time I had an issue with my parents, school, ex-boyfriend etc. So don't make it seem like I don't need you 'cause I do. When I said I'll be there for you even though we are apart, I expect you to mark my words. But please, don't take me for granted. When I give you advice, the least you could do is listen. I advice you so that you are guided to take the best path through your arduous journey. Just because I'm not your girlfriend anymore doesn't mean that you can do whatever you like to harm yourself. Then what do you take me for all these while when we're together?

My expectations of you have never decreased and neither will it deplete. So please, you have to take this opportunity to prove to me your potential. You can't rely on me all the time. We're still young and we have the future ahead of ourselves. Who knows, fate might bring us back together some time? I will never change who I am. I am always the Iwani you come to know when we first started out. You know I'll be the one that got your back.

I've had my say and I know you'll be reading this. I hope now you get a clearer picture. The decision I made had been hard. Maybe too much for me to handle. Giving up on you wasn't the last resort. It wasn't even an option. So please, understand me. All I ask from you is to understand where I'm coming from. This have been rough for the both of us but I'm sure time will heal the pain. Please A, do what's best for yourself and don't let anything get in your way. I believe in you. The rules haven't changed. Just the status.

Hello Unread Lines :)

Woke up early this morning just to study with The Dudes and Twinny. Studied at Bedok Library for a bit and honestly, it didn't really help. Told you I can't concentrate when I study at public places. Tsk. Took some a lot of pictures. But I lazy to post them all up. So, just take a look a some can?

Want to see more, go to Twinny's Blog. After studying, lepak-ed at a random pondok. Look what we found...

Sooo cute :) HAHA. After lepak-ing, bus-ed down to Tampines. OMG! I bought 2 tank tops and a tee. I can't stop shopping! Can anyone help me stop this latest addiction? I know shopping is a way to keep my mind off the problems I have. But, 6 loots in 2 weeks? Siow arr!

Anyway, 4E2 peeps made my day today, thanks to jokers like Syazni and Gab. We've planned to have a mass gathering next Thursday and I can't wait! Haven't seen a few of them since Prom Night! HAHA.

I have so much to say but I don't know how to express it in words. Help me...anyone? Okay I have to answer a phone call now. Love you all :) xoxo

You still got me to hold you up

I will never let you down

Hello Speed Dial :)

See the cute biscuits above? That was the dessert I had at the wedding yesterday. How did they know I love those biscuits? I like~ Religious class at grandmum's crib was cancelled so I took the opportunity to have a good long afternoon nap. Spent the entire night doing Maths revision to this point of time where I just can't tolerate anymore numbers. Gaah~

Anyway, I'll be following Hana to Aloha Loyang tomorrow to confirm our class chalet then I might be joining Twinny and friends for group study at Bedok Library. Sounds like a plan? But thing is I just don't feel like stepping out of the house these days. Especially when I am reminded of A everywhere I go. I miss him so much :( I still remember the time when we sat near the Singapore Flyers when you sang to me my favourite song, gently playing with my hair and looking into my eyes as if you can see through me. Now, I'd kill to have the past rewind. But what is done cannot be undone right?

Last week had been an emotional whirlwind for me and trust me, it sucks. It just took a week to turn everything in my life upside down. Didn't know it can take just one week, huh? No more being a Year 1 student, no more walking into W47L, no more A :( Sad much? All I can do now is just hope for the best as February set sail. To those who are feeling the same way as I am right now, all you can do now is have faith in God that tomorrow will be a better day. Love you all :) xoxo

To ****, I know who you are. I've checked your IP address.

All of these

was all my fault

Look at me, in my eyes. Tell me that you feel nothing inside 'cause I can't wash you off my skin. But I can't see you ever again. So, I'll forget I love you, don't want you anymore. I keep on lying to myself, cause we could've had it all. You should keep pretending that I'm only just a friend. Can you look me in the eyes and say its worth it in the end?

I miss everything we had 'cause everything I do, reminds me of you.